Sometimes it's just hard.
Sometimes it's just hard to be the caregiver. To see the one you love in pain, falling apart, and not the person you once knew.
Sometimes it's hard to give your love unconditionally or to be patient and understanding.
Sometimes it's hard not to be selfish or to try to be still in the present, when you feel like you're standing on a roller coaster.
Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am prepared for all of this. That these are the moments I can practice the truest of Yoga, and maybe--MAYBE ascend my own ego in the process.
Sometimes I have to remind myself that everything in life is a gift.
The ones I love. The ones who love me.
Love itself and the evolution it is under.
The laughter, the pain, the way things are.
The way things can be, and all the moments in between.
Peace & Love.
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I don't really know what to say, but I want you to know I'm sending hugs and love your way.
(((Connie))) I have been on both sides of this one. I have been the one "in the chair", hooked up to IV with poison flowing through my veins to save my life. And I have been the one who has stood by and helped and cared for others.
It's hard to be the caregiver, that I learned so well when I was being cared for. It's hard to keep it all together and to be "on" 24/7. It's frightening and you don't want to frighten the one you love. You want to help and to do and to make it all go away and make it better and your hands are tied.
If you can, join a group for caregivers...they are abundant in communities and the doctor involved should be able to direct you to one. They help. Immensely. They are safe and created so that you can take your worries, fears, anger (there is anger, there has to be -- about the unfairness and the hardship and the harsh handing out of why did this happen), sadness and let them out to others who get it, who understand, who share these same feelings.
I offer you hugs and hope. I offer you a shoulder to lean on should you need it and want it. And know how much others care. Allow others to be a blessing in your lives...people want to help, they want to be there for you -- open your arms to them all. ♥
Relationship is for me the sacred journey - it calls forth all the places that are unlike love at times. And when I am called, I have to find my deepest center - and breathe.
Relationship has been and continues to be my place of Soul-stretching..
Be blessed,
LeeAnn
www.divinecowgirlchronicles.com
Wishing you much peace and many blessings of comfort and loved ones to help you and your loved one during this time.
Connie, I have been there in my own way. I'm sending you much love.
Do not expect yourself to be perfect. Your love is perfect enough as is.
Thinking of you both!
I have been on a similar journey - who am I kidding, I still am in that role - things are just "past the hump".
You'll have good days and bad days - days when love, caring and sympathy come easily and days when you have to slog through it and try not to snap apart.
You've seen those commercials about adoption where they make the point you don't have to be a "perfect" parent - well that holds true in many rolse were love is the key.
Just remember to put on your own oxygen mask first.
Sending y'all loving kindness.
I'm sending you big {soul hugs}
So much good advice here Connie. Do be gentle with yourself, because someone needs to take care of the carer. Don't forget the hot soaking baths, the walks in nature, or whatever it is that nourishes you.
Sending some healing thoughts and hugs your way, for both of you.
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