Today was back to work for me. Starting last night there was this nasty knot in my stomach. I'll be honest, I just didn't want to go back to work today. I'm sure I'm not alone.
Anyways, I got my bootie out of bed early so I could begin the day with a 45 minute Yoga practice. I was feeling incredibly crunchy this morning, so I opted for more gentle, restorative postures. But somehow, that nasty knot actually transformed more into nausea as I tried to find some form of peace on my mat--some solace in my breath or the moonlight that was shining through my window. But my monkey mind was having a field day badgering me with what is so wrong with my job, my life, my body, my self.
Not the way to begin a new year. Or a Monday.
Unfortunately, I CHOSE to carry this crappy mind frame with me throughout most of my day--and things just started to get worse and worse. I even, "absent mindedly" locked my keys in the car. Yeah--ONE of those kind of days.
Sunday I was having great rays of light zap me and create HUGE epiphanies in the car. Monday I was back to square one throwing big baby tantrums in my head.
After today I feel a bit hopeless and at a loss for real answers. But, what I do know is that I plan to stay COMMITTED to my Yoga practice and TRUST that this is the right thing to do in discovering my TRUTH--and the TRUTH of all this actually.
Peace & Love.
6 comments:
Must be some cosmic thing . . . because my day sounds eerily the same. (My car trouble was a check engine light, rather than locked keys, though. Otherwise, they sound alike!)
I wish I had some answers. The universe is telling me my job isn't a good fit . . . but the economy and the family I must support aren't giving me much room to leave it. *sigh* Here's to better days!!
I had the exact same kind of day today! Right here at the new year when I was anticipating things going in another direction. I agree that it must be a cosmic thing...whew, let's hope tomorrow is better for all.
ps - I'm also embarking on a yoga practice at this time...your post really resonated with me.
~Big Hugs~
I admire your committment and dedication....it'll all fall into place.
I think today was a crummy Monday for all of us.
Just wondering - what could you have done to turn off or distract that monkey mind from throwing it's tantrum?
Bravo to you for showing up at the yoga mat.
The Universe is just testing you Connie, making sure you are present. I think everyone struggled a bit with that first Monday thing, but I noticed with my 14 year old daughter, it was amazing, like someone switched the lights on, she clearly missed being at school. We all sunk into a lazy groove over the Christmas holidays and I think it wasn't doing any of us any favours. Hope today is a little less testing for you, Hugs from over the chilly Atlantic! Beverley
You will work it all out eventually Connie my love, but in the meantime meditate on this, sometimes things have to change or go in order for there to be a gap in your life for the universe to fill.
i love you with all my heart
xxme
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