Something snapped is the best way to describe it.
Maybe it's like in Yoga. Sometimes the teacher will ask us to tense up every muscle in our body, even take a deep, deep breath and hold it. We lie there on our backs as a body of trapped energy. Trapped and tense. Then seconds later we release...and the relaxation feels sweeter.
Something snapped in me. Now I'm melting back into the beauty that I recognize as me, instead of the darkness I was holding onto and hiding in.
Just this week my dear sister, Sweetmango, made me promise her that I would do the 21 Day Cleanse HERE. On the first day you are guided into a meditation where you have a conversation with your inner wise self. You ask your wise self what it is you need to focus on right now....and truth be told, I was surprised. Part of me wanted to start an argument even and debate this part of myself.
(Silly.)
But I think this is where the snap occurred. I think this is when the body of trapped tension released and settled into the present moment.
I feel focused again. I feel excited.
Passionate. Driven even.
I feel purpose.
I'm glad to be back!
6 comments:
welcome back sweet smile!
wandering thorough Nothing sometimes is all we need to recharge. we need time to examine before we leap and dedicate, refocus. being open to Nothing is hard for movers and shakers and do-ers, but life is cyclical, so it only makes sense that downtime will come and go. i hold faith in that anyway!
I have felt the shift as well this month. My husband (the bub) has noticed as well. He told me the other day that I look happier, that I smile more and that I just seem to be more content. For someone who has been in a deep funk for 3+ years, it was nice to hear it was evident to him; its been very hard on our new marriage, this funk of mine. I am happy to say that for our marriage, going Through something with someone, while difficult In the process, is amazingly gratifying, fullfilling and enriching to us now. Have faith, sweetpea. & good on you for being so mindful and respectful to the process. Oh, Life.
xo
WOOT WOOT!!! usually in Yoga, the 'snap' makes me cry....
haha, I'm so glad that made you smile!
Dear Connie, I am so happy to have met you. Thank you for sharing your beautiful, honest journey with us here.
your journey has been amazing and inspiring. I understand the 'snap' well. Many blessings to you sweetie.
Oh I am glad you snapped. :) Snapped into place that is. I like the idea of doing this cleanse. My husband is finishing up a body/eating/not eating cleanse this weekend and I can't do that. I get hungry in 3 hours! So I think this kind of cleanse would be better.
It's nice to see that smile again. *hug*
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