Today is my very last day of work.
Wednesday was my last day with the kiddos--yesterday I spent my day cleaning the Art room and preparing it for the next teacher to inhabit. And now Friday it's a pot-luck breakfast with the teachers and putting the final touches on the last chapter of my Creative Juicy Life.
It's been an emotional week, my friends. Very emotional and exhausting. I thought today I'd be jumping for joy and sharing a dance video with you...but instead, I find myself going inward and seeking moments of solitude.
I'm not just changing jobs this time around. This is something bigger. Something I can't explain--or even possess the words to describe to myself even.
So, I turn to painting of course.
I spent last night on the patio by candlelight--painting. I'm not finished you see....I've only just begun.
Yes, oh yes.........I've only just begun.
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Connie, I understand this so much, because I am in a sort of similar place. Though it looks like I still have a couple months to go, I nearing the last day of my job and never going to be in this kind of position again.
Even though I really hate my job, company, etc., I am not solely jubilant about the end. So, so many feelings have come up and, I'm sure, will continue to come up.
So, there are some similarities in where we are in life and it makes a lot of sense to me that you may be feeling quiet. What I'm finding is that I can't predict how I will feel at different points in the process.
All the best to you today! Whatever feelings come and go, you are continuing on your path of something beautiful.
Connie, congratulations on taking the huge step in following your dream. I too am tip toeing through this process. I'm a SpEd teacher who hasn't been able to get a permanent position... just closed doors. Another door opened recently, one that will allow me to work from home and involves art and paint and I'm so excited (but can't say more till the deal goes through!) but at the same time I'm scared to death to give up teaching. It's definitely bittersweet. I will be keeping an eye on your blog and sharing in your joy as you begin your new life. Hugs!
Maybe you'll need a big nap!
Congrats! I've been thinking about you all day!
Connie - I have so much more to share with you, but for now, my tears (of joy and something else...not quite sure) and virtual hugs will have to do.
I'm thinking of you and all you must be going through...birthing a new life is a beautiful process. (Even if it is a bit painful.)
I just found your blog, and I love it. I am now a follower. I wish you the best in your struggles right now, but you will come out better and stronger, and already have beautiful art to show for it. This is an AMAZING painting...I might need it to hand in my studio! ;)
Esther
all the best to you on this next chapter of your journey...warmly, s
Congratulations! I just found your blog and, apparently, at just the right time. It is such a leap of faith to jump ship and do your OWN thing, the thing that makes your heart sing. I did it three years ago (wow - that long ago???) and haven't looked back. Sometimes, it's scary to live without a security blanket, but the freedom to just be and do as you please is so amazing. You will stay connected to the people you're meant to and you will be a teacher in so many new ways. It's good to grieve and it's good to celebrate. Feels confusing in the moment, but I can already tell you'll be soaring in no time. Enjoy!
Can I ask those of you, and Connie, who are making the choice to do the thing that makes your heart sing, how you did it? I can't begin to describe how desperately I need to do this but am strapped to a mortgage...and in this economy? I admire you Connie for making the commitment and going for it. I would love some advice.
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