How Beautiful











I live and am in LOVE with a photographer.

Believe me, this is not always an easy thing.

I've had to grow comfortable with having his lens capture all the moments of my being. I've been forced to make amends with bed head, crusty morning mouth, and that goopy stuff that gathers in the corner of my eyes late, late at night. Because he's going to catch it--and stare for hours on his computer at it--at me.

And he'll call me off the couch or out of the studio just to tell me how beautiful I am.

How beautiful I am.

And I can't see it.

I see the flaws.
The circles under my eyes and the gap between my teeth.
I see the pouch around my waist and the flesh clinging to my hips.

But through his eyes he's sees a masterpiece.

So like any typical red blooded female--I won't let my honey have the last word.

I picked up my own camera and locked myself in the bathroom to just prove a point--so he could see what I see.

And as I looked into my eyes--I saw the woman I've always dreamed of being.
I stood there staring at her.
Wow, the woman I've always wanted to be.
She was looking back at me.

And huh,
Now I get what all the fuss is about.

(He wins.)





16 comments:

mel said...

and so he should.....(he's a cutey-batootie himself, i might add)

it's hard though. really hard. still workin' on that one.

xo

nacherluver said...

Oh bravo, Bravo!!!! Love this post! And you deserve to feel beautiful because you are.

AngelEyes said...

Great post! You are beautiful ;)

Emma said...

We see it, too! You're beautiful!

Lisa said...

I have the chills! Awesome, awesome...I've always known you are beautiful but that you can stand in front of a mirror and declare it yourself? KEEP it UP! Oh you beautiful one, you make me smile.

Karen D said...

loving these self portraits.. you are a fearless goddess

miscellanea said...

I relate to this SO very much and hope to come to your place of pride and acceptance...someday...for more than ten minutes at a go.

This is so beautiful, Connie, and so are you.

~Barb~ said...

Do you know the one thing that I find makes a woman sexier and more gorgeous than any other attribute? A gap between the front teeth. OMG, it is sooooo beautiful! Think Lauren Bacall. You, my dear, are sexy and beautiful and gorgeous...so yea, Hansel definitely wins!
Peace & Much Love,
~Barb~

Mar said...

i am glad you "over it " and he wins!!! cause you are beautiful!!!
and that you just...move on is the best thing anyway
and let him be
and that he thinks you are beautiful is all that matters even when you don't
cause that is all it is about!

Barbara Martin (@Reptitude) said...

He wins?! It's more like:

YOU WIN!!!!!!!!

Or maybe, you BOTH win!!

:)

darrah parker said...

Well, you know how I feel about this post. This is my mission in life. You are, indeed, beautiful. Own it!

faerian said...

this made me cry

Emily said...

Yea, Connie!!! I love those moments when we see the beauty in ourselves; it is far too UNcommon in a woman's life, I believe. I'm so glad you see your loveliness and in the spirit of thanksgiving, am grateful that you choose to share your gifts (many that they are!) with this community. I'm thankful for Miss Connie:):):)

Kelly Warren said...

:-)

acleansurface said...

Yeah, he totally wins.

Painting Herself Into Being said...

OH YEAH!!! How beautiful, indeed! How beautiful indeed!

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