For years my morning ritual consisted of yoga first thing when I got up.
For years. Seriously. Years.
Then blogging stepped in somewhere and I noticed I was beginning to trade in yoga poses for email, facebook updates, tweets, and getting my first dose of my blog roll in. It happened gradually--but it happened.
Then this past December, during my Soulful Hiatus, I decided I would break the habit.
I would do like my wise friend Jamie Ridler always says: "Begin as you wish to continue." and start a new ritual. One that would infuse my morning with intention, stillness, and deep connection to my spirituality. One that would begin the way I wish to continue my day--from a place of reverence, peace, and gratitude.
So, I started meditating for 20 minutes each morning. I'd sit cross legged on my meditation blanket and put 20 minutes on my timer on the phone. And well, since I had my phone there-in my hands already---and I was doing so good by starting my morning off with meditation--I allowed myself to simply check my emails on my phone. But only check. No replies--no indulging in them. Just check. Then I'd proceed into meditation.
And the truth is...I started to feel a difference.
My days were a bit more calmer--I was a bit more stiller. Things were good. But not right.
So I upped my meditation time to 25 minutes, then eventually a half hour.
Still, pretty good. But something still not right.
Finally I was honest with myself. I realized that if I really wanted to be connected to my spirit--my creative source--my truth, then I needed to let go.
Let go of the rat race that the information highway provides 24/7.
Let go that maybe I won't be in prime time for people to learn about my newest blog post or see what so-&-so is up to today.
Let go that a whole other world that I immersed myself in for years now--will still keep moving and rolling, while I sit here, in stillness, in silence, in peace with my own information highway running top speed in my head.
I had to let go of the distraction and deception of feeling connected to something so much greater than myself--to actually allow myself to lean into a source so much more powerful than downloading speed--so much more larger than the world wide web.
I needed to let go of my need to feel connected to connection.
So I could finally be connected to the highest part of myself.