You Are Meant To Love Your Life

Self Portrait on A Wednesday In Spring


Can I tell you something?

I absolutely love my life. Like love it so much I want to squeeze the ka-jeebers out of it. Like love it so much that the feeling sinks to the pit of my stomach and explodes--making little sparks of lightening shoot through my veins.

Yes, that's how much I love my life.

And listen...my life is far from picture perfect.

I'm far from picture perfect.

There's a long ass list of things that could be better-that I wish I could have or do or be more like. But despite of all that clutter---I still love my life like nobody's business.

And here's the thing. This life of mine is easy. Not because I got it made--but because I've decided this is how it's going to be.

I didn't make this decision just yesterday, a year ago, or even five or twelve. I made it long, long time ago when I was just a kiddo growing up and watching my parents struggle and be so terribly unhappy. I made it when I watched my stepfather hit my mom and when my grandfather was drunk and being nasty to my grandma. I made it when my father walked away and when I would lock myself in my bedroom to get away from all the yelling.

I made the decision then and have been working on it ever since.

Through bad relationships, addictions, a drawn out college career, wrong decisions with men, jobs, hair colors, and money. I've tried and tried again....always knowing that one day things would be different.

Why? Because that's what I decided.

And don't I have some say over this creative juicy life of mine? Don't I have a say on how I want to live it?

It breaks my heart to a million pieces when I see others struggling and swimming through so much misery. I want to grab them and hug them like a mother and whisper softly in their ear.

Decide that enough is enough and start today.

Decide that you want a better life. A life that's easy and full of sunshine and love.

Decide that you want happiness.

And after you decide, know that it is waiting for you.

It always has been and it always will.

You are meant to love the ka-jeebers out of your life. You were born to feel lightening shoot through your veins.


16 comments:

freecreate said...

Right On Connie! Yes Yes Yes...I love my life tooooo, sometimes I forget for a bit that I love it, but then something reminds me, and here I am, my little lovely life.

Beverley said...

Love it Connie! I agree completely, I am only now beginning to realise what potential my life has and how I want to live it, on my terms, I am fed up with dancing to someone elses drum. I wished I had have realised this many years ago, but I figure that it is better to know this freedom for a short while than never to have known it at all. There are too many things in my life I am grateful for that I would not take back any of the years I have lived so far. Those years make me the person I stand here today. The "new" person I will become will simply be a happier one, living more authentically, however the "me" will still fundamentally be the same. Love Bev xx

Keep on, keeping on, you are doing a great job Connie xx

Amanda St.Clair said...

Beautifully said, Connie! You only have one life to live so why wouldn't you want to live it YOUR way? We don't have to put up with the abuse and unhappiness. We are worth so much more than that.

Jenna Caring said...

I absolutely agree. I grew up in an abusive home and I think I subconsciously came to the same conclusion when I was young. I see some friends and family members place so much unhappiness on themselves, but I do believe that we have the power to change that. Sure, there's tons of negative shit that we encounter in our daily lives, but don't choose it! I choose happy. I choose freedom. I wish it were as as easy for others to the same.

"If you want to be happy, be." - Tolstoy

Sara said...

I love this post! And I totally needed this reminder today. This will be my morning meditation today. Thank you for these words!

Tracy Carlton said...

giving you a big squishy hug.
you and mel, my current fav's to stalk with LOVE!
mwuah!

Brandi Marie said...

Amen Sista!

Alex said...

Beautifully written. I too made a committment to fall in love with my life by living a simple and uncomplicated life after much chaos growing up! Is an amazing feeling...so glad you chose to give yourself this gift too!

Abigail's Creative Journey said...

I love coming to your blog. You are so inspiring and by your words and actions and heartfelt blogs you give the rest of us the confidence to keep on the path that we are on, regardless of the critics around us and the others that want to bring us down. Big HUGS!

Gloria said...

Wonderful post Connie. I thank God every day for everything. We only have one life and we MUST enjoy every day. That's what I said this very early morning when I was outside my studio, sitting on the bench, just taking in the beauty of the morn. Very nice post, thanks for sharing and glad you are where in life you want to be.

A. Leigh Jacobs said...

Thank you, I needed that, especially today.

:)

Stephanie said...

this is a beautiful post...and you have a beautiful heart.

just signed up for BIG....over the moon to be part of it!

hugs,
Stephanie

Marylin said...

I think I could have written most of this! Though I have been blessed with a good family life.
It makes me so sad when I see people so unhappy. I want to help them realise how wonderful their life could be if only they decided to change it!
Beautiful post. :) x

Amy said...

Thank you for this. Gonna go paint now.

"Narah" Kimberly Minardi said...

Thank you! I want more people to read this because you are so right! We have the power to make our lives better! Off to share... :)

Nancy Lee & Bill said...

You are so fortunate to love your life!! I love parts of mine - when I get to be creative. The other part, my job, while I love my students, I am tired of being chained to a schedule and bells. I want to be free to create. And I am driven by fear - I have three years and some months to retirement, and everyone tells me I am crazy to walk away now, my pension will be so much less. But I found art three years ago, at the age of 48 when I gave up alcohol, and it consumes me in such a wonderful way that the three years seem like a prison sentence.
I know you understand,
Nancy