"In the actuality of, life is the testing ground for the truth of what is important."
Ever since I was a teenager, I wanted dreads. I thought they were beautiful. Cool. Such a symbol of nonconformity and knowing oneself in my book.
And than last year, shortly after quitting my job and beginning my new journey deeper into my truth, I decided from the depth of my heart that it was time. Time to be initiated into this *new me*. So I researched, asked questions, talked to people, prayed, and finally invested in getting dreads--which took me a total of 30 hours to have done.
And I loved them. I loved them very much. And when I looked into the mirror--I felt like I was looking at the real me.
I even nurtured them. I began to get to know them and watch the evolution that happens on your head when you have dreads. And I began to get attach to them.
Well, not really the dreads themselves--but rather the image and idea that came with the hair.
To me having dreads was an outward symbol of being FEARLESS--independent--strong--different. Even more than that--I felt they symbolized this deep spiritual journey I had committed myself to as well.
But deep down, the truth is, I wanted to be all those things in which I felt my dreads symbolized. That's really it.
Than one morning in May I woke up and began my morning dread ritual and realized that I no longer needed a symbol.
It hit me real hard that my dreads were merely a bridge.
A bridge that took me from wearing my truth--to being my truth.
And all of sudden they felt heavy to me.
They felt like they were weighing me down.
Suddenly my attachment to the idea behind them was a mask I no longer needed to wear.
So I picked up a pair of scissors and began to cut them off myself.
Grateful for the amazing lessons they taught me.
Lovingly letting them go.
And when I looked in the mirror--I saw the real me again.
Now I was all those things-
that once only my hair represented.
And the best part is I created space to be even more.
|Photo of Leah from Rising Appalachia borrowed from HERE.|
Funny thing is that two days after I cut my dreads...Leah from one of my absolute favorite bands: Rising Appalachia cut her dreads as well...and she posted the above photo on Facebook when she did--and she said:
"Lighten the load, strengthen the word."
(Exactly. My thoughts as well.)