One Long Ribbon
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No matter what, I "never ever" go to bed without brushing my teeth.
Never ever.
In the last two weeks of being a Mom for the first time--that carnal rule of mine has gone by the wayside. At least once.
(Maybe twice.)
I'm also typing this blog post with one hand.
And sure, none of this will get me an award--and none of this means much to anyone but me. And none of this really says much about living with a newborn.
Until you go through it.
Until all of a sudden you realize that you are no longer the same person you once were. That all of a sudden you do things differently---and not by choice--or even necessity--but simply because your DNA has changed. The molecular structure of your heart has shifted. Your brain has somehow got used to exhaustion and now tolerates the feel of feces on your hand or white spit up running down your neck.
All of a sudden you wake up and know what to do.
Somehow.
At least you think so for awhile.
Then tomorrow comes and what worked yesterday is not doing the trick today.
And I'm relearning the Art of laughing at myself--at not taking things so seriously. I'm relearning the importance of grass under bare feet and sunshine on my shoulders--even if it's only for a few minutes. I'm relearning the science of discovery--the enlightenment of magic--the importance of wonder.
I'm relearning unconditional love and the words to forgotten lullabies.
I'm relearning the ingredients of happiness like memorizing the periodic table.
Or maybe I'm just being clever.
Maybe I'm not doing anything special that hasn't been done before--through my ancestors and yours. Passed down from woman to woman. Never skipping a generation. Never missing a lunar cycle. Never depleting the midnight sky of it's darkness.Or denying the sun it's radiance.
Just simply letting the energy move.
One long ribbon of love--tangled, knotted, and thin in places.
But stronger than any precious metal.
Happy Mother's Day, to every woman.
Happy Mother's Day.
11 comments:
Happy Mother's Day to you as well--enjoy the love!
happy mother's day to you connie! I know you have probably received oodles of motherly advice so far and will still have people throwing in their two cents. here is mine - look into that precious boy's eyes every morning and for the rest of his life ask him how out of all the baby's in the world did you get the best one? tell him you love him and enjoy all the moments of his life. my son will be 22 in august and when he was born he came into this world two weeks late and still not wanting to come out! we rode the wave together for those first few months. he was colicky and I was trying to survive in an abusive marriage. some days all I did was cry, but I always made sure to tell him I loved him. through the baby spit up, trips to the hospital and as he grew watching him dip his hand into many fires and knowing that he would get hurt, but I had to let him learn. through all of it I knew that I had a miracle and I was one lucky mamma and he knows that he is loved. I wish you a beautiful day, precious moments, strength through the bumps and love. ciao!
BEautiful, beautiful words. AS I was reading this post, I thought ... it is ancient wisdom. The very first mother EVER picked up her child when she cried and held her to her breast for comfort. The very first mother EVER gazed into the future held in her baby's eyes. The very first mother ever wept with joy, with exhaustion, with frustration, with wanting more for her child.
Much love to you new MAMA who is discovering, uncovering, the ancient wisdom that runs through your soul.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to you also Connie. What a beautiful and insightful way to look at and experience being a new mom. I so love reading your writings. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. P.S. You and Phoenix look so peaceful, happy and content. XOXOX
amen and a little women too <3
happy momma's day to you connie...enjoy every blissful minute.
you two look so darn peaceful! :)
Happy Mother's Day you beautiful woman. Your darling baby is precious. I don't comment often, but I follow you pretty regularly. Thanks for all of the inspiration.
Just visiting from the Flickr group and I want to say congratulations and Happy first Mother's Day! Welcome to the {rarely-brush-your-teeth-never-get-much-sleep-love-till-you-can't-breathe} "club".
Mwahhhhhh mamacita bonita!
love love and quality(not quantity) sleep
and I so get the one handed typing
xxx(to all three of you)
Connie, this is such a beautiful portrait of you and the baby. I have been out of town and away from internet access for two weeks. Couldn't wait to see the baby. He is so adorable! And I love his name; so appropriate for this time in your life. Congratulations!
Everything from here ever after as long as that is your child will now be a big deal!! A beautiful wonderful big deal that lasts a life time! You are part of the mothers club,and no matter how old we are we still remember those lonely nights of exhaustion, dreaming of a few moments to shower, an adult to connect with, and someone just to say I do know how difficult and wonderful it all is!!
You're doing great, your dentist or your teeth won't hate you for having other priorities right now or purely forgetting. Time melds together and although it seems long and arduous now, it will pass like a snap of your fingers! But you will NEVER forget!!That's what bonds us all!!
Big hugs to you, and don't be afraid to ask for help!!
Giggles
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